11/03/24
messed up again. I ate pretty much only pastries and candy for a few days, and had a minor freak out. I got sick (likely from all the sweets) and called out of work in a way that was pretty unprofessional. I'm going to have to apologize, and try to explain without oversharing.
There's not a ton of food in the house. Nothing with protein, besides some dino nuggets that really upset my stomach. For some reason my phone isn't getting texts from the family group chat. They know this but don't try to tell me when it's dinner, so I usually miss it. I'm starting to suspect they just don't like me all that much.
Yesterday I spent the whole day hiding in my step sister's room. She's away at college and I've been using her desk for sewing. I was so anxious I couldn't even handle being around my family. I layed in front of the closed door and covered my ears for an hour to calm down.
Finally by about 4 the house was empty and I worked up the courage to go to the store to buy some real food. Nice toddler meal of chicken breast, honey mustard, and applesauce.
Some anxiousness remains but feel much more like myself