7/13/24
Another bad day. I hate to do another negative entry, but I am really not having fun. No one read this, except maybe cos. Hi Cos!! The site is finished enough that I could send a link to the rest of my friends, but I don't want to send them 4 pages of me just complaining. Plus I've already told them about or at least mentioned most of the stuff irl. I guess this is just practice. I still havent had any real sleep. Now I keep dreaming about being yelled at. I feel like I'm bad at my job, and that people are losing patience with me. The lack of sleep is at least partially to blame. Not just for me actually being bad at my job, but the low self esteem and anxiety as well. I'm also just a bit pathetic, I think. Today was hard. It was very busy and I messed up nearly everything I was asked to do. Some plans to meet up with friends after didn't work out, which made me really sad, but I'll get to see them in a few days so it's okay. Oh also messed up the name change on the 8th. I don't even want to explain it, it was very scary, and sucked. Everyone (with the exception of one person) was very pleasant and kind. The judge rescheduled for next week. Everything should be in order now. I've seen lots of foxes at night, that makes me happy.
Edit 10:55 henry is throwing a party he has some big fireworks
I stood on the porch and watched him standing in the lower yard by the woods. He lit one while holding it. There was a flash and for a very scary second I thought he blew his hand off. Then it exploded above him over the trees. I worry about him, man. He came back up laughing and shouting to his friends “no more.” The recoil of it hurt his wrist.
